Imma gonna try

I’m having trouble logging on to my account here from my Mac. I spend a lot of time on my iPad so NBD, but I’ve got to figure that out.

I’m in no shape to be figuring stuff out, to be honest, but I keep trying. I’m slowly getting my computer network thing settled, although it would be nice if I can get this PC out of here and downstairs where it’s cool. I’m not worried about it overheating so much as the fan blows directly on me — I worry about me overheating quite a bit.

The main reason I can’t move this computer downstairs. of course, is that there were people working down there. The basement reno is almost done, and every night it’s pretty exciting to go downstairs after they finish for the day.

I’ve been locked into animation work for the past few weeks, hardly doing anything else. There’s a lady who texts me a lot to check in and it’s hard to explain how I can be this debilitated and still be so busy.

Truthfully, I can ’t really say. It’s not physically taxing, other than having to get up and stretch. I don’t understand how I can make so many errors and not give up with frustration, but it’s really OK.

At least a dozen times yesterday, I saved an image to open it in another app, but when I try to open it I find that I somehow didn’t save it. it’s as if I save and then immediately forget that I didn’t do it.

I really wish I could draw you a picture, so to speak, of my poor brain. It’s not that I can’t cogitate — I just can’t retain anything in temporary memory (i.e., my personal RAM). It’s not even scary as much as bizarre.

This is all going into a file that I will take to a neurologist eventually, probably in early September. There’s nothing particularly reproducible about any of my symptoms from that standpoint; I think maybe if you just watch me walk for a while you’ll get it. This is all feeling routine to me by now; going through certain motions, but not expecting any hopeful results (hoping for expectant results?).

I’m going to continue posting (and linking on Facebook) every day until I sense that everyone who wants to read is reading. I’ll probably get the sense of a critical mass and then start figuring out where I want to go with this. I always appreciate comments, although in the old days of blogging I really didn’t care about them (although it was nice to read what people had to say). Now any engagement is a little shot of bliss right in the arm so feel free.

At some point, I might do a little blow-by-blow of what I do to produce my animations. It takes concentration and hours, but considering I’m running my own little animation studio here I think my output is remarkable, really. I’m surprising myself.

I posted this on FB but here it is again, same caveats — not me, not my story. Superficial resemblances not intentional. I just like redheads. 😎